so i thought...

he is just like ne othr guy...
always making promises
and saying stuff to me
i thought he meant,
but it was all just a big lie
:*(
i don't kno why i'm tearing
rite now,
just thinkin of the fact dat he keeps
hurting me and i keep
giving him chances..
gawd,
i was such an idiot.
i regret it,
i regret it all.
i fell in love wit a jerk!!!!!

REVENGE!?!?!?!!?

k,
so ya today i was havin
a good day until my ex
decided to ruin it by writing in
my yearbook saying
"REVENGE!!!!"
wut da hell??!?!?!?!
i got so pissed,
and i still am rite now.
he had no rite to sign my
yearbook.
so 2moro me and my
friend are gonna kick his
ass and tell him off...
[asshole]

it's kinda funny how things turned out to be in the end...

"sometimes solutions aren't so simple,
sometimes goodbye's the only way"

ya...
so it's funnny how we said
we make things workout btwn us,
but i had a feeling it wasn't
meant to be said...
once again,
things got screwed up
and i made it worse by
making him hate me....
i think he hates me for sure now,
well at least da stuff i told
him was true and he knows it,
he just won't admit it...

party,compitition and some more partying...

well
dis weekend has been
really busy for me
friday nite i had
to perform at my skool
at the Fine Arts Department Banquet.
my friends and i recieved
trophys for being
involved wit dance.
saturday i was gone all
afternoon and nite
for my Folklorico compitition
it was 4rm 6-9pm
but i had to b there by 5pm and i
didn't get home till
like 10:30pm i think
cuz it was all the way out
in Riverside and lotz of traffic.
sunday
we had a barbeque for my
dad's b-day
and today
my sis and i went to
hangout wit my cuzns for
a while and
i also had to finish my hw[too much]
so all weekend
i've been busy
and also saturday mornin
i saw Pirates of the Caribbean 3
[it was awesome]

Avril Lavigne "Runaway"

i can't believe wut is happening....

ppl have been tellin my
ex dat i talked shit bout
him on myspace when
da truth is i never did,
ok, ya
i told him to drop dead,
but i only said dat
cuz i was mad.
so now he hates me,
he probably hates me
so much he wants me
to die...
i've been trying to explain
to him wut i really said
but he won't listen to me.
he needs to kno
dat honest complete truth
bout those bulletins
i posted on myspace.
cuz it pisses me off
dat he hates me for
somethin i nver said...

the honest complete truth....

ya so once again,
it was an ugly break-up,
but it was just like a waste
of my time.
i mean,
he's da one who wanted to
get back together
and he didn't do shit to
make it last...
dis is why i'm pissed.
i mean,
i tried to work it out
but he's so complicated
to get thru.
i just really hate da fact
he didn't do anything
to save dis relationship
he just gave up and
it fuckin sucks.

today was just another day witout a thought of you...

so ya, i think me
and yahir are done,
cuz he hasn't said nething
to me bout his decision...
neway,
today i just found out
i have to perfrom dis friday
nite at the fine arts department concert
[[sigh]]
and i really don't wanna
go to compititon saturday,
but if i don't
literally my teacher wud kill me!!!!!
neway...
i'm really bored rite now,
i'm currently on myspace
and i'm listening to
Linkin Park's new album
[[it fuckin rocks!!!!!]]

this makes sense...

from day one i talked about getting out
bot not forgetting about
how my worst fears are letting out
he said why put a new address
on the same old loneliness
when breathing just passes the time
until we all just get old and die
now talking is just a waste of breath
and living's just a waste of death
and why put a new address
on the same loneliness
and this is you and me
and me and you
until we've got noting left

by denise lopez

as days go by, i still think and wonder if all of this is worth my time...

update bout my realtionship...
fuck, i don't evn kno,
he hasn't said shit to me
so i'm guessin he doesn't want
to be in dis realtionship.
to me,
i feel like i'm da only one
making an effort to keep
dis going while he is just
there...
[sigh]
idk wut i'm goin to do...

it couldn't been worse...

today,
my mom took me,sam,
and denise to an art museum
for our art report we have to do...
well on the way back,
we we're on the freeway,
and we realized my mom
had a flat,
but then as we were tryn
to pull over,
da whole tire was falling
apart and i just paniced
so badly, i began to shake
a bit...
but luckly the freeway control service
was there and he replaced
the tire and we were able
to get home safe...
but i was so scared,
idk why tho....
luckly nothing really bad
happend to us....
seriously it could've been worse.

i don't...but he mite...

i talked to my bf today
during lunch to get things
straight btwn us...
but he just ended up confusing
me and himself[dork]
we're not sure if we're gonna
stay together,
but i really want to work
this out and just move on
and still be together
and last as long as he told
me a while back.
i'm tryin to get things outta him,
but he won't tell me.
i kno how he feels deep
down inside, but he won't tell me...
i really wanna be wit him...
ever heard dat quote,
"it's ez to fall in love but it's evn harder to let go"
well dat's pretty much how
our relationship is...
i hope he makes a decision soon
cuz idk................................

confused and don't know what to do...

well...
i feel really like down rite now,
i don't feel like doing anythin
or talkin to anyone...
my bf and i just talked bout
us and if we're gonna make it,
but we're both confused
and not sure what's gonna happen...
to be honest...
i really don't wanna break up...
but it just mite happen
and i'm gonna have to
accept it, i guess.
i think he knows i was
cryin on the phone
when we talked earlier...
it just sucks...
2moro, i'll probably feel
like crap and not give
a shit what anyone says or does...
but me and him really need
to talk...
and what ever he decides to do,
i have to accept his decision...
i really don't feel
like typing rite now.
i'm just probably gonna go
to bed evn though it's
only 8pm,idk.
i feel like i have nothin else
to do, but mope around
and just think and think...

today was my dad's b-day...

today is my dad's b-day,
i wud tell you his age,
but sadly i don't even know...
dis friday we're throwin
him a party along wit his cousin and
my othr cuzn.
so friday nite is another party
i gotta be at...
kinda sucks cuz i was gonna
make plans wit my friends,
but i did ask if i can invite a friend,
they said maybe.
dis weekend i'ma be soooo bz...
i'll tell u more later bout it durin
da week.

last nite...

last nite i went to another
party for my cousin...
dat party was best party ever...
i had so much fun.
of course there was a jumper
and we were in there all nite.
we kept tryn to bring it down
but the parents stopped us [damn]
but we finally did
and it was so awesome[lol]
the parents even started to laugh
at us cuz we played dat
game ring-around-the-rosie [?]
but it was fun...
but my cuzn michelle didn't play
with us cuz she just
wanted to talk to her boyfriend [w/e.]
i had fun and so did my cuzns.
it was da best party,
so far dis month...lol

the untouchable...

k denise,
i hope ur read dis cuz
u wanted to kno.
what we learned in class today
was about personal space
btwn people and places that
we can't touch [it was a weird class]
and also bout abuse and rape
and stuff like dat.
class was only 30min [thank god]
so dat's wut i learned today [lmao].

neway
today i'm goin to another party...
o ya,
denise,
for dat art report my mom
said she wud take us [me,sam,and u]
to da art museum like next weekend.
i'll email u bout dis.

i'd rather not say anything and leave it at that...

if u heard bout wut happened
to me during 3rd period,
don't say anything.
and also i don't wanna talk
about it.
all day ppl have been askin
me if i was ok,
evn teachers found out wut happened.
I'M FUCKIN ALRIGHT!!!!!!!!

DENISE,
I'LL LET YOU KNO WUT I LEARNED IN CONFIRMATION CLASS 2MORO [LMAO]
I'LL POST A SPECIAL BLOG JUST FOR YOU[LOLZ].

runaway....

"I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch


And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize"

if u were my man and i was ur girl....

iF i WAS YOUR GiRL

1.)how many times a day would you kiss me?

2.)how many times a day would you just want to hold me?

3.)would you love me?

4.)if we went out on a date would u have me pay for it?

5.)would you take me anywhere special?

6.)If I was sick... what would you do?

7.)If one of my friends tried to get with you what would you do?

8.)would u tell me?

9.)would u listen to all my problems and help me solve them?

10.)Would u introduce me to your mom/dad?

11.)Would you care about what i wore when we went out ?

12.)If your friend tried to get with me what would you do?

13.)Would u give me your myspace password?

14.)If i gave you mine would you read all my mail?

15.)If i said i loved you would you say it back?

16.) Would you get in a fight over me if a guy was trying to do something he shouldnt to me?

17.) tell me all the ways u would love me?

18.)Would u put me on your myspace?

19.) Would you tell all your friends you have a girl you love?

20.) would you go to my games and support me

21.) Would you hold my hand in front of all your friends

22.) Would you want to come chill with me

23.) Do you currently have a crush on me?

24.) Tell me how you currently feel about me.

annoying as they can be, i still love them...

my cuzns Nicole and Michelle
are my best friends.
but they sometimes can get
annoying...
especially Michelle.
Nicole is just crazy and
sounds like a 9yr old [so yahir says]
last nite at the party i was
at...
michelle decided to call my bf
and ask him why he hasn't called me...
well i guess u can say
she was like yellin at him
but not really.
after awhile, she just got
really annoyin and sorta pissed
me off, thru da nite.
and Nicole just wouldn't shutup.
gawd!!!
they can sometimes just get
on my nerve,
but i love them otherwise.

party !!!!!party!!!!!party!!!!!! & grades?!?!?!!?

tonite i'm goin to 2parties.
dis shud be fun...
i'm goin to cuzn Mike's party first at 5pm
and then at like 7pm
i'm goin to my uncle's party.
all day i've been cleaning
and i also did all my spanish hw.
O!!!!
and i got my progress report...
i only got 1 C dis time.
but dis time my "C"
wasn't in spanish[i got a B]
i got a C in History [dat bitch]
but w/e.
i've always hated dat class...
i always seem to fall asleep in there.
my gpa is 3.17,
which i think is good,
but my parents want me to improve.
i probably will...
we'll see...lol

2min & 30seconds...

we performed today at
Albion Elementary School
in Downtown.
well we got lost plus we missed
da exit on da freeway 2x's.
we we're laughin at ms.v.
we finally got there and we
only had 40min to get dressed.
but in the end,
it was fun and we got to watch
da other couples dance.
we left CSHM at 11:15am
and came back at 3:15pm.
it was cool...
but now we gotta perform
for International Day at CSHM
and then at the Fine Arts Concert
and plus our competition.
all in the next three fridays
and one saturday.
we are gonna be so tired after all this...

Oh little brother please refrain from doing that...

dance is fun, i get my anger out by stomping my heels really hard when i'm mad...

i get outta school early 2moro!!!!!!
i leave at 11am and won't come back till
like 4pm...
well laura's back in dance [fuck]
sam and i were complainin
bout it during class,
and she knew we were talkin bout
her and we can tell she was pissed
at us and now she hates us,lol.
o well,
we hate her too,
especially her asshole
bf Jack [i hate him so much].
i hope they die!!!!!!! [lmao]

you guys are not funny, ur just plain mean....

so from now on,
i'm locking my locker.
denise and sam decided to play a joke
on me with my locker.
i was waitin to go to my locker
and denise and sam are like
"go to ur locker!!!!!"
and i'm like
" y u guys want me to go????"
so i go, open my locker
and Frickin denise and sam switched
my stuff to another locker!!!!
they were just lookin at me laughn
so hard...
and i'm like
"where's my stuff?!?!?!!?"
it turns out they put my
stuff in the locker next to mine.
So now i'm lockin my locker!!!!!


DENISE, YOU ARE SO MEAN, YOUR NOT FUNNY!!!!!!
I'MA GET U BACK AND SAM TOO.